'Cause MySpace isn't working.
Damn.

Anyway. I edited my layout.
But I'm still bored with this account.
Maybe I should make all my old posts friends only or something.
Or just make a new journal.
New start-
That could be fun.

... I think I'll do that.
But I'll link back to this one or something.
Sentimental reasons?
Something like that.

2006 Christmas List:
-Haggard.
-Jackass 2. [if it's out by then, which I hope it is]
-HIM Tour Ville Valo Jacket
-Deep Shadows and Brilliant Highlights
-Viva La Bam Season 1
-Viva La Bam Seasons 2+3

I'm making a new LJ for stories.

setmeinmotion

:)

Other than that...

I posted this in a myspace blog, and I wanted to put it here, too...

( You. )


And I went to the dance last night. It was pretty fun. The last half, anyways.

WHY ARE THESE STUPID JOKES SO ENTERTAINING??????

I shall post some of my favorites ^_^

Chuck Norris can be unlocked on the hardest level of Tekken. But only Chuck Norris is skilled enough to unlock himself. Then he roundhouse kicks the Playstation back to Japan.

Chuck Norris has never been accused of murder for the simple fact that his roundhouse kicks are recognized world-wide as "acts of God."

If, by some incredible space-time paradox, Chuck Norris would ever fight himself, he'd win. Period.

Chuck Norris once ate an entire bottle of sleeping pills. They made him blink.

If Chuck Norris were a calendar, every month would be named Chucktober, and every day he'd kick your ass.

Chuck Norris doesn't actually write books, the words assemble themselves out of fear.

When Chuck Norris sends in his taxes, he sends blank forms and includes only a picture of himself, crouched and ready to attack. Chuck Norris has not had to pay taxes, ever.

According to Einstein's theory of relativity, Chuck Norris can actually roundhouse kick you yesterday.

Chuck Norris CAN believe it's not butter.

Chuck Norris can judge a book by it's cover.

Guns don't kill people. Chuck Norris kills People.

Chuck Norris has two speeds. Walk, and Kill.

Outer space exists because it's afraid to be on the same planet with Chuck Norris.

When the Boogeyman goes to sleep every night, he checks his closet for Chuck Norris.

Chuck Norris is the reason why Waldo is hiding.

Chuck Norris counted to infinity - twice.

Chuck Norris got a perfect score on his SAT's, simply by writing Chuck Norris for every answer.

There is no Control button on Chuck Norris' computer. Chuck Norris is always in control.

Chuck Norris let the dogs out.

In an emergency, Chuck Norris can be used as a floatation device.

Chuck Norris make onions CRY!!!

Chuck Norris is not only a noun, but a verb.

When Chuck Norris was denied an Egg McMuffin at McDonald's because it was 10:35, he roundhouse kicked the store so hard it became a Wendy's.

When Chuck Norris falls in water, Chuck Norris doesn't get wet. Water gets Chuck Norris

Chuck Norris can divide by zero.

A picture is worth a thousand words. A Chuck Norris is worth 1 billion words.

When Chuck Norris talks, everybody listens. And dies.



And there are SO many more good ones.
WHY??????????????????????????????

I'm unhappy, so I'm gonna bitch like my life actually matters to someone.

Which it doesn't.

But it's always nice to play pretend.

I have no one to talk to and I'm sick of it.

I'm always hearing about people doing stuff without me and I'm sick of that too.

I'm tired of people lying to me.

If you really cared, if you really thought I was such a great friend, you would want to hang out with me more.

When you are around me, you seem like you're unhappy.

Oh, did this become adressed to one person?

Oops.

But what can I do when the best friend I have doesn't seem to like me at all, but then tells me she thinks I'm a great friend?

I start thinking someone's not telling the truth, that's what.

So please.

Tell me I'm horrible.

Tell me you hate me.

Tell me the truth.

So I can totally just retreat into myself.

And hate EVERYTHING around me.

I hate school.

I have no purpose in life.

I hate my family and all the other people I have to deal with.

I hate having to wake up in the morning and live.

And I don't know if it's ever going to get any better.

But You're fun.

When I'm talking to you, I'm happy.

But when I'm not, I'm miserable.

Is it worth it?

Even though you sometimes treat me just like they all treated you.

You're still the best friend I have.

But... I don't know.

I don't understand anything that goes on in my life.

And... I think I'm done now.

Woohoo.

Weekend.

I'm gonna be bored.

*sigh*

I'm going to my mom's on Monday though.

Gotta take care of her after she gets her surgery.

But until then...

I'm gonna be bored.

So give me a call :D

Or not... O.o

I got to hang out with Xavier and Nick today after school <3

Fun times.

Then me and Eric went hung out at Chey's for a while.

And then we went to KARATE! XD

It was fun. I want to join the adult class. And the teen class.

'Cause I don't get enough excersize '~'

My dad says I can. Now I just have to talk to my mom.

And figure out cost stuffs...

And now it's Tyler's birthday party.

O.O Save me...

.. I wonder how many times I've said that today.

Lots.

Anyways...

I haven't updated in a while. And Cheyenne told me to. So I am.

I shall talk about... The latest in the life of me :D

I'm still rather infatuated with a certain pink haired boy <3

Though I still barely know him.

Oh well.

I finally talked to my mom. Ish. I gave her a note.

But before we go into that any more, I must explain why...

I was on the computer. Of course. For hours.

All the time with my brother whining to get on.

So... at around 9:00... when we're supposed to be in bed (but my parents weren't home yet),

Cheyenne had to take.. someone home. I don't remember who.

So I let Connor get on the computer, saying he had to get off when she got back.

And he agreed.

After maybe ten minutes I walked back over and saw that she was back.

And I told Connor to get off. It's not like he does anything important. Goes on myspace and talks to a bunch of people who don't care.

I mean really, it's Connor.

But he refused to let me get on. Even though he promised I could get on as soon as Chey got back.

And he was keeping me from my roleplay.

So I wanted to cause him as much pain as I possibly could.

And I pretty much did just that.

There was A LOT of hair pulling.

That's how it started, actually.

And I'll tell you now, my hair was not pulled once.

And there was a lot of pushing.

Me trying to push him out of the chair and him pushing me away.

I got slammed up against the wall at some point, I remember that.

And I can't exactly remember who picked up the chair...

But it was also used. Usually as a boundary between us.

And there was a lot of screaming. REALLY loud screaming.

Just so everyone's clear, I'm not saying I got in a fight with a little 4 year old or anything.

It was my 12 year old brother, who's bigger than I am.

But I had just... snapped. Gone crazy angry.

He ended up winning, I guess. Because in the end, I ran off to my room and he was still on the computer.

He was crying pretty hard though.

So was I, when i was in my room.

And he threw my shoe at me.

So my parents got home a few minutes later.

And I was writing the letter. All that anger had given me the courage to tell her everything (even if it wasn't to her face). I was shaking and crying as I wrote. I had to start over twice.

When she walked in and said "Why did you hurt your brother?!" I responded with "He deserved it." I then proceeded to tell her that I needed therapy. She said she'd tried to get it for me and Connor before, but my dad didn't want us to have it.

Well he can just go fuck himself.

Anyways, I told her I was writing her a letter. Which I ended up giving to her the next day before school.

I don't remember exactly how it went, but I do remember some basic ideas I included in there.

Like...

I need therapy. I'm unhappy and I don't control anger well (as was proved that night... sheesh). I can't get along with Connor, and I don't like it when she always sticks me with him. I don't like Dad because I'm tired of listening to him yell and complain and I can never do anything about it. I don't like living in too different houses. I don't feel like I have anyone I can really talk to. I don't respect her and I think she just tries to fit her stereotype of a normal family so she can look good in front of everyone else. I'll never fit into that perfect image. And then it included a bunch of things I hated, like how she stereotypes me to my age instead of actually getting to know me and how she thinks I'm Christian when i'm not nor will I ever be and how I hate living at Dad's house but I know she would never want me to live here full time.

I think i left out that I don't trust anyone, which is another important thing, but oh well.

Anyways... That and a few more things were in the letter. And I gave it to her.

I was kinda worried at school about what would happen when I got home.

Well... more like totally freaked out.

And still all shaken up from the fight with Connor.

But I had lunch with Rachel, so I got to talk to her about everything. That was good.

And then when I got home, Connor didn't act any different than normal.

We watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (That movie isn't nearly as funny without Chey..)

And mom came home with Panda Express for dinner.

And gave me a ten dollar giftcard there as an 'early valentines day present.'

(Ahem. Connor got no such thing.)

And she hugged me and told me she loved me.

And then we all sat down and I got to eat Rice and Orange chicken for dinner.

Then she helped me make my 'Happy Birthday Seth' shirt.

Which I wore to school today.

But guess what? She's actually been LISTENING to me.

She didn't always do that.

So that's good.

Other than that...

I'll be getting a deficiency notice for my C in math any time soon.

And I'll be going to my dad’s on Friday, too.

What a perfect combination >.<

And Valentines Day’s coming up.

And… I’ll have no one.

Oh well. Not like I’m not used to that.

And that's all. Byebyenow!

Just what it says. I'm going to make most of my entries Friends Only.

So If you care, join LiveJournal and be my friend.

Send me an email if you don't understand how.

Kaythanksbye.

Times 5 makes 50.

( 50 Things I Hate. )

Gah Don't you hate listening to me complain? Eh.

Duuuuuuuuude.

I just went with Eric, Chey, and Morgann to the movies.

Well, Emily and Lauren were there too.

But yeah.

Anyways...

We saw...

dun dun dun.

Brokeback Mountain.

Which, don't get me wrong, was a good movie.

BUT IT WAS SO SAD!!!!!!

I was crying.

Chey was crying even more than I was.

I went in, all excited and expecting to see a cute, romantic boy love movie.

*sigh*

There were romantic parts.

Some kissing scenes.

Most of those involved agression in some way...

Heath Ledger's character was VERY angry O.o

But overall, it was just depressing.

I don't accept it as a movie.

They need to go back and remake it.

Make it fluffier.

AND NOT SO SAD. T_T

I don't want to ruin the movie, but anyone who's seen it will know what I'm talking about.

They weren't allowed to do that!

They just... weren't!

Vury depressing.

But Jake Gylanhaal was still cute.

And Ledger's a hottie too.

Except when they get old...

Jake with that mustache O.O

That was just BAD.

Shave it, Jake. I'm begging you.

Hehe he wasn't the greatest cowboy.

But he was the cutesy emotional one, so we forgave him :D

But... ARRRRRGGGGGHHHH.

It was a god damn bitch of an unsatisfactory situation XD

I loved it when he said that.

And when he freaked out about the rodeo thing.

And when he freaked out when Enis or whatever Ledger's name was killed the elk.

And when he said that "Sometimes I miss you so much I can't stand it."

T_T

And Heath Ledger wouldn't stop murmering!

You couldn't understand anything he said!

Anyways...

I want to see Bubble boy again.

Happy cute little Jake.

But it's not gay...

*sigh*

So for the last few days I've been sort of... Meh.

Because I'm a bitchy attention whore or something.

I don't really know.

I have weird moods sometimes...

It just happens.

Earlier today I was thinking it was about time I pack up some stuff and run away to Nebraska.

Especially since the world simply refused to open up and swallow me... Which I found very rude.

But I got my hair done yesterday.

And it looks awesome.

And I went to the Street To Nowhere concert with Danielle on Tuesday.

And it was awesome.

And after not really laughing too hard about anything for almost four days,

I could not stop giggling for the whole 20 minute drive home from dinner.

Me and my brother were laughing about everything.

And now I'm in a VERY good mood.

And I hope everything will be okay tomorrow...

Anyways... All the things me and my brother came up with at dinner/on the drive home:

Yidditopia :D

Superkings

It's better to have an egg today.

The philosophy of the Yiddish century is the common sense of me.

Eureka! The American's Are Dead!

And there were a few others that were only funny because we were giggling so hard already.

AND I GOT LIMEWIRE!!!

Yus :D

So far I've downloaded/am trying to download:

( All of these songs... )

Most of those I'm just trying to download. But yeah :D

Ughh...

So.

Today wasn't so bad.

Boring. Repetative. I'm so fucking tired of life.

But not so bad.

We played Tennis in PE, as usual.

Chey and I were doing our little play fighting, as usual.

But I don't think I know her well enough to tell if it's a joke.

I find myself really annoying, and when I play the joking around insult game, I can never tell if the people really mean what they say. They could have really gotten tired of me, right?

So I got all weird. And I wouldn't open her locker. And I think she got mad. I don't know. We didn't really say anything about it. We just went to lunch and acted like things weren't weird. But I think they were.

Anyways... Then I had French and Math. Not good classes to have when you're already kinda stressed.

'Cause the thought of Chey really hating me... That's VERY stressful.

And then in math I just thought about how pointless life is. I really don't see why any of it matters. But it didn't help my mood.

So then I rode the bus home. I got to talk to Danielle. We're going to the Street To Nowhere show tomorrow.

If my mom doesn't let me go, I'll scream. Probably at her. Consequences be damned. I'm going to that concert.

So anyways... I didn't want to wait for the bus to go all the way to the middle school and finally get to my house half an hour lately. So Danielle suggested I walk. And I agreed.

Well, I'm not good with excercise. But I wanted to get home as quickly as possible, so I basically powerwalked the whole way.

20 minutes.

With my backpack on and full of books.

In my vans, which definately aren't good walking shoes.

The idea of walking all the way was not a great one...

And I had to work myself up to motivate me...

Plus all the stress I had already...

Not a good combination.

So I was all angry when I got home.

And I got on the computer.

And Danielle added me to her friends on her LiveJournal.

I'm not sure what to expect from it...

And then I talked to Chey.

And of course I was all pissy because I was already angry.

"Well I didn't do anything to you. So why am I getting treated like I did something wrong?" Were her exact words.

Great.

So then she was annoyed with me.

Which adds to the stress level.

And then my brother came home and pounded on the sliding glass door for me to let him in.

And I was tired, so I didn't feel like moving.

After banging on the door for about ten minutes (god, just fucking give up already!) He finally went around and came in through the front door.

And then he stomped around the house all angry.

And I screamed at him.

I meaned SCREAMED. Like... REALLY REALLY loud.

And I'm pretty loud as it is.

He stopped pretty soon after that.

I get angry too easily.

Like my dad.

Great.

I'm just a natural bitch.

I told Danielle that once and she just laughed.

But it's true.

I enjoy making other people feel bad.

Maybe because it means they actually care about what I think.

I don't know. But i'm a bitch.

I am sorry, though.

I'm very sorry to Chey, who I don't even have the guts to actually talk to about all this.

And yet I'm posting it here, where she'll read it.

Stupid much?

Well, to end my story...

I feel a little better now.

I'm roleplaying with Chey.

And I'm listening to music entirely too loud.

And I'm ignoring my brother's existence.

And I talked to my little sister on the phone. She's too cute to bitch at.

And I'm trying to drown out the rest of the world and live in my own little world.

My own pathetic existence that makes know more sense to me than anything else.

And I've been talking about myself for WAY too long.

And I don't want to be an American Idiot. (Sing it, Billie!)

And I have hours of homework that I'll probably start working on at 9:00.

I'll be up really late and I'll probably fall asleep in French tomorrow.

Madame will just love that.

Maybe I'll take a nap tomorrow before the concert.

That could work.

On a happier note: My weekend.

Is anyone still reading this? 'Cause I'm still just typing away about my own life as if it matters.

Oh well.

I went with Chey to Sunrise Mall after school Friday. They did NOT have my gloves at Hot Topic, and I had the money and everything. I was incredibly distressed.

She slept over at my house Friday night. We played Mario Kart and watched Without A Paddle and took pictures and played with photoshop.

Saturday we stayed at my house for most of the day, and we watched the Andy Milonakis show and Can't Hardly Wait.

Then we slept at her house.

We didn't go to Winter Formal.

I didn't want to. I look horrid in a dress, and I didn't really have fun at Homecoming.

Sunday morning... We watched All Over The Guy and Bubble Boy. Two WONDERFUL movies. All Over The Guy was this cute gay movie and I absolutely LOVED Bubble Boy. It was adorably hilarious. Jake Gyllanhaal <33333333

I WANT TO SEE BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN, DAMMIT!

We're planning to see it Sunday. Me, Chey, Eric, and Morgann. I hope we're able to, and I hope we don't get in trouble.

I'm such a goody goody. It's annoying.

But I try to avoid conflict... It bothers me.

Maybe I need some more conflict... Like between me and my parents... The only problem is they would just think I was stupid and wrong.

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Fuckers.

Then my mom picked me up because we were going to see A New World, which she really wanted to see because we went to Jamestown over the summer and saw all that historical stuff.

And she picked me up an hour and a half before the movie started... O.o

And I didn't even go.

She was dissapointed in it, because it was more of a movie than a history lesson.

What a freak.

Then I was on the internet until 10 last night.

After she told me i HAD to go to bed at 8:30.

Haha bitch.

She annoys me sometimes.

Like... All the time.

And now I'm really done.

Hope you all enjoyed listening to me complain.

Uh.. I don't actually talk like that. Just so you know :D

I'm hanging out with Chey. We watched Scream. Gotta love that movie.

We hung out a lot over the weekend too. We went to Sunrise Mall and then saw Fun With Dick and Jane with Eric on Friday. I slept over at her house Saturday night. Then on Monday we went and saw Last Holiday with Eric. Last Holiday was a lot better than I expected it to be.

We've also been role-playing in my little notebook. I'll have to post a profile on my character or something... Michael. ^_^ <3

Now we're watching Meet The Barkers. What a cute couple! I've never been too much of a Blink182 fan and Travis was always my least favorite anyways, but they're so cute!!!!!

I'm too fluffy... Hehe :D

So... what else did I do today?

Digital Art- Nothing too exciting. The picture I worked on is of me. And it's not very good. I took a bunch of pics on Monday but they are at my computer at my mom's. I can get them tomorrow. Yay :D. I spent an hour taking pictures constantly and I only got 16 good ones. I'm not photogenic at all. Oh well.

Science- Did some work... When I was finished, I was writing some roleplay stuff in my notebook. I have a big project thing that I should work on... eh, I'll do it tomorrow.

English- I was having fun until Caleb started acting like he knew everything about me. I hate it when people do that. I got all pissed off after that.

PE- Tennis with Chey. Fun :D

French- We had a substitute, so it was pretty easy. I think I did good on the quiz.

Math- Copied down the notes, Wrote roleplay stuff for the rest of the time. I didn't want to do homework.

Tomorrow: Dentists appointment. Blech. But I'm going with my mom, so it shouldn't be too bad.

This is... it. I'm not quite sure how it works, but I hope to figure it out soon.